Month: July 2018


Lots of people have difficulty with doorways. There’s something in our bones that distrusts them, while at the same time affording them great importance: stepping through a doorway is the beginning of an adventure, or the turning point in a horror story.

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Day 49 – A little pill

I dry swallow the new pill (2/10, do not recommend with dry mouth) on the way back to the office. Probably 15 minutes after I take it, I think I can feel it kicking in.

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Day 48 – Given a booster

Rather than increase my Elvanse dose, which she says probably won’t lengthen the effects much, Dr E prescribes me some little ‘booster’ pills: 5mg Dexamphetamine Sulfate.

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Day 47 – Too sleepy

I do not get a lot done today. I did not sleep. I’m not even sure the nearly-five-hours recorded above is accurate: I spent a long time lying very still.

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Day 45 – Rain

We’ve got a house inspection this evening – a volunteer acting for the rescue centre. She will decide if we can have the puppy. Stevie arrives in the rain.

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I give myself very good advice But I very seldom follow it That explains the trouble that I’m always in Alice [youtube] ‘Be patient’

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Day 43 – Hot and bothered

I didn’t do much better there. It’s so hot at work, and I think it’s making all the Elvanse side effects worse somehow. The dry mouth, jaw clenching and head rushes have all been awful today.

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Recent posts


I find it very hard to get it through my head that, no, I won’t “finish this bit off tomorrow”. I’ve always had a bit of an issue coming to terms with things ending. This might be the longest thing that I have ended.

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The Year of Calm

If I try to identify a thread that runs through the negative areas of my life – lateness, half-finished tasks, frustration – it is a lack of calm and clarity.

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