Day 11 – And… action!

Pink and black icon of an old-fashioned movie camera on a tripod

TL;DR
General notes: 
Take 50mg Elvanse at noon (12.00) in an attempt to stay alert until past 02.00.
Physical notes: Fail in above attempt, sleepy by 21.00! Power through by eating more (Quorn fish fingers and some instant pasta crap) and having too much caffeine. Heart rate a bit high but not too bad, have spaced out coffee better.
Mental notes: Focus on writing excellently during the day, and get up to do housework when I feel mentally fatigued. Really proud of myself. Sleepy and not very clear by midnight (00.00) but not surprised by that!

It is 02.19, so it’s technically tomorrow. I volunteered to be an extra in a friend’s university film project. There’s a whole posse of young creative types doing interesting things with tiny cameras and large microphones.

SOME TIME AGO, I got up and pottered about being unmedicated for a few hours, as I thought taking my Elvanse late (12.00) would help me get through this without yawning constantly. Wrong! I was sleepy by 21.00 and I wasn’t due to go out until midnight. Made sure I ate plenty, so I’m not light-headed or anything, just very tired.

It has been a very long time since I started getting ready to go out at 23.00! I arrive at midnight and stand and talk as directed, which is perfectly pleasant.

I am able to type this into my phone now because they are doing some specific shots with the ‘talent’. This takes a long time because (as I well know) having backup shots of everything is very necessary.

Not drinking is a blessing and a curse in situations like this. On the plus side, I’m not making a total tit of myself. On the other hand, I might be enjoying myself a lot more if I was making a total tit of myself.

Not drinking is a blessing and a curse in situations like this. On the plus side, I’m not making a total tit of myself.

I’m saying that, but actually I don’t really fancy a drink. I sniff a friend’s wine to test their theory that it’s gone off (it hasn’t, it’s just rubbish wine) and don’t even think about it until afterwards. This is a cool development. I’m not enjoying standing here, exactly, but it’s not as difficult as it would have been a few weeks ago.

Thinking about it, I’ve done really well this evening. I have been reasonably chirpy (considering the circumstances) and socially engaging with everyone. I am not embarrassed about any of my interactions this evening. Is that because I am behaving more acceptably, or because I am not overthinking? Who knows. I won’t dwell on it, but it’s pleasant; and I like telling you pleasant things when I can, dear reader.

Christ alive, this is taking a long time. Bloody creatives (that ‘pleasant’ thing lasted, didn’t it?). I don’t even know what’s happening any more. There’s not a lot of movement.

Ah, it would seem that they are, as they say in the business, “wrapping up”. Good-o.

We are just past the summer solstice, so the nights are extremely short and the sky is starting to lighten already.

We walk home at nearly 03.00 – we are just past the summer solstice, so the nights are extremely short and the sky is starting to lighten already.

It is chilly (to me – Joe is in a t-shirt) and quite strange to see the sky in its stirring state. I’m so rarely up this late these days, and never up this early. Annoyingly, I suddenly feel quite awake!

However, when home I go to sleep more easily than I expected, and sleep deeply.


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